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  “This bathroom is breathtaking!” There’s an enormous stone shower with two large, rain style shower heads, a very inviting bathtub with jets covering the inside of it. One entire wall is shrouded in mirrors with a wall to wall marble counter containing two white bowl sinks, “This is like top of the range…everything”, I say in complete awe.

  “I’m pleased you like it, what do you want to try first?” He glances around the spa like bathroom, “The shower or the Jacuzzi?” He spins me around to face him and I run my hands along his biceps and look up into his enticing gaze.

  “God, you’re tall.” I laugh as I look up at all six foot three of him. I feel tiny standing before him, there a thing on him that’s small.

  “That I am, and you, my dear, are very short. Fun size. You have gone way beyond expectations, you’ve made tonight the best night of my life, Savannah Livingston…if I could freeze time, I’d spend forever with you tonight.” He leans down, kissing my forehead and turning his eyes back toward the shower, “How about we try out that shower? The thought of fucking you up against that wall is making me hard.” My clit throbs as he talks about us together, knowing he feels the same as I do is thrilling and terrifying all at once.

  “Well, I guess that does sound quite appealing,” I say, reaching for his hand and pulling him towards the shower. Moments later the entire bathroom is engulfed in steam. The place smells of Kayden, his rich seductive body wash tickling my nose and intoxicating me again. I us the soapy bath sponge to rub suds all over his body and he amuses me by settling on his knees so I can scrub his shoulders and back.

  “I think I’ll be imagining this shower every time I step foot into mine,” I run my hands over his body, helping wash away the soap. “My vibrator is gonna get a lot of use this week, trying to work you out of my system, Mr Knox.”

  “Well that makes me very happy,” he whispers into my ear as he licks my lobe and bites onto it, pinching it between his teeth. My legs turn to jelly and I’m thankful he’s pinning his body with his.

  I reach out and grip his cock firmly as he lathers soap over my nipples, jerking it I feel it spring to life again in my hand.

  “I think we’re clean enough,” Kayden says, tossing the sponge across the shower. I spend the next twenty minutes being pounded against the tile wall, his strong arms holding me up as he fucks me to the hilt until my muscles buckle under my weight. We clean up again and head back to the bedroom, lying on the bed with our glasses of champagne and devouring the rest of the food.

  “Do I even want to know how many women have laid in this spot?” I grimace as I lie back on the mountain of pillows on his bed.

  “Well before tonight…None,” he said matter-of-factly, a serious look plastered across his face.

  “Come on, you’ve admitted you’re a world class player.” I flip onto my side and rest my head in the palm of my hand, watching his face for the smallest clue that he was lying.

  “Dead serious, Savannah, This is the grandest suite in all of Houston. I have three bedrooms here including my own; I only sleep with women in one of my spare rooms, never in my personal bed.” He reaches for my face, gently rubbing his thumb along my bottom lip.

  I smile at his sweet gesture, “Okay, so if that is true, then why did you bring me in here, if you have a ‘no fornication’ rule for your bedroom?” I’m completely and utterly confused. First he has sex with me in his car, which he made clear he’s never done before, then we have unprotected sex twice, which neither of us has ever done before and now I learn I’m the first woman to step foot into his personal bedroom.

  “Are you smiling?” He asks.

  “That I am,” I say as I watch his eyes explore my face.

  “Good.” He leans over and traces his hands under my bathrobe, making his way toward my hips,

  “I don’t think I can handle any more of your Texas sized penis tonight, Kayden, I’m exhausted!” I giggle.

  “Okay, I guess I have no choice but to stop then.” He pouts, giving me puppy dog eyes.

  “Is it wrong for me to want to freeze time right now?” I ask as I twirl his hair in my fingers.

  “Not at all. I don’t want it all to be over tomorrow, I don’t know if I can just forget you.” With those words we fall asleep in each-other’s arms.

  When I awake a little while later, the sun hasn’t risen yet. I’m pinned beneath Kayden’s arm and it takes me a moment to realize where I am. I slide out from under him and reach for my cellphone. It’s only

  five thirty, we’ve barely been asleep an hour.

  I’m suddenly overwhelmed with emotions and I struggle to think straight, Kayden has awoken feelings inside me that I’d wished to never feel again. His blatant disregard for monogamy is an obvious omen for heartbreak and disappointment.

  I take a moment to admire the beautiful man lying in front of me, the memories of last night flooding my mind and bringing a smile to my face. I’ll be forever grateful to Kayden for proving to me that I’m able to feel something after everything with Logan, but I know that leaving him here like this will be one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, and I hate him for that. Nevertheless, I slip on my dress and carry my shoes out of the room, honestly believing that this is a better option than sharing Kayden with an array of sexual partners.

  A few hours after I fell back to sleep in my hotel suite, I awake to the sound of my cell ringing. I roll over, swatting frantically at my night stand, trying to locate my phone. The sound was splitting my skull in two and I realize my fear of waking up hung over has come true.

  “Hello?” I rasp, still trying to wake up.

  “Savannah, its Eloise, I need you to meet me for breakfast down at the hotel restaurant to go over some things for the party tonight.”

  Oh my God, she is seriously calling me at…I glance at my cell to see it was almost noon. Crap… I never sleep in past nine.

  “Okay, I just need to take a quick shower and I’ll be down.” My entire body aches and it feels like I’ve been run over by a semi-truck. I’m extremely grateful for the two hour spa-treatment I’m booked in for this afternoon; a full body massage is definitely required. Kayden

  Knox sure knows how to wear a woman out.

  I down a bottle of water, along with a few aspirins and take a quick shower to wash Kayden off my skin and get ready in record time.

  I decide to dress casual as I’d be heading to the spa right after my meeting with Eloise, so I throw on a white tank and a long flowing skirt with sandals. I quickly style a French braid down the left side of my head and pull all my hair back into a bun, leaving a few ringlets out around my face and neck. I toss my phone into my purse and head down to the hotel restaurant, to meet with Eloise.

  She is waiting for me at a table next floor to ceiling length windows which overlooked the pool outside. She looked as stunning as ever, with her hair pulled back in a tight ponytail. She had on black peep toe heels and a beautiful sleeveless hot pink dress. She stands to greet me when I arrive at her table, bringing me in for a quick hug and air kisses before sitting back down.

  “So glad you were able to meet me this morning, I know you’ll be busy this afternoon getting ready for the party,” she says, tapping on her iPad.

  “Yes, I have a full schedule this afternoon. I’m going to the spa after I leave here, then Quinn suggested a salon to get a mani, pedi and my hair done,” I say as I look over the menu.

  “Ah yes, I forgot the free spa treatments; I think I might take Kayden up on the offer and schedule one myself. I’m exhausted; I didn’t get into Houston until almost midnight last night because of all the interviews.”

  “How did they go? I didn’t get a chance to watch anything last night because a few of us went out to Vertigo to celebrate.”

  “They went great. There’s so much buzz over the issue, its mind boggling how many people are fascinated with Kayden Knox. I think we made the right choice picking him,” She beams her million dollar smile at me.

  “Really
? Well that’s great news; I can imagine the blogs are posting all about him and January’s issue, which is great for us,the more publicity the better.”

  “Oh my God, I know, can you believe we’re trending on Twitter? That my dear, is monumental!” She looks truly pleased and it makes me smile. The magazine was ranking near the top for sales, with the invention of iPads, Kindles and other E-readers we are reaching an even larger demographic. People can subscribe to our magazine and each month an issue is delivered straight to their E-readers.

  “Wow that is crazy. So that means a lot of people are talking about it on Twitter. I can imagine Kayden and the other men on our list are flooded with tweets from fans,” I say as I take a sip of water, my throat feels like the Sahara desert. The waiter finally comes round and I order a vegetable omelet and iced coffee. My stomach is still churning from all the drinking I did last night. I’ll be lucky if I’m able to get more than a few bites down.

  “Sadly though, I come bearing some not so pleasant news to share with you, Savannah. While I was at E!News last night, I ran into Logan,”

  “Logan…why was he there?" It feels like all the air in the room has been sucked out. Hearing his name out loud, felt like a sucker punch to my abdomen.

  “He was there with Megan; she was there to discuss her new film premiering next week. But that wasn’t the only reason he was there. I guess he just signed up to be on Dr. Drew’s new season of Celebrity Rehab.”

  “Celebrity Rehab? For what? Logan doesn’t do drugs, hell, he barely drinks!” I exclaim, a little louder than I wanted, drawing attention from people at the tables around us.

  “I guess he’s claiming that his actions toward you are due to a sex addiction,” She rolls her eyes as she says it because she knows exactly how pathetic it sounds. Logan did not have sex addiction any more than I had a coke addiction, I was more than willing to be with him any time he wanted, but instead he chose to sleep with models he worked with. He gave in to temptation instead of directing those wants and needs towards me…his girlfriend.

  I practically inhale my water as she talks, “How dare he keep doing this to me? It’s been hard enough dealing with all his conquests selling their stories to the magazines but now he’s going to go onto actual television and rehash everything he has done! Now instead of the drama and interest dying down, he’s just going to feed the fire. I’m going to have to deal with paparazzi following me, everyone wanting my feelings on him going on that show. My business should be my business, not something he should be allowed to share in great detail with Dr. Drew and the millions of viewers who will tune in to the show every damn week.”

  I feel horrible for blowing up, but Eloise had to have known I would react this way. She was thoughtful enough to tell me herself at least and not let me find out by seeing it on TV, or even worse, coming from Logan while sharing on E!News.

  Eloise sets her hand over mine and looks at me sympathetically while she speaks, “He’s just trying to extend his five minutes of fame; that’s the reasoning behind this. He’s been getting tons of publicity from this whole ordeal and it’s helping movie sales for his clients and bookings for his models. It’s sad but true, that’s how our business works. Publicity is publicity and people love a scandal.”

  “He should be taking responsibility for his actions and not just running around telling everyone that what he did to me is okay. Trying to pass the blame on to an addiction instead of facing the truth, he is such a cheating piece of shit.” I’ve never actually sworn in front of Eloise, well loud enough for her to hear me anyway. I didn’t care at that moment because my emotions were overtaking any sense I had to hold back.

  “If you need to talk, I’m here for you. Remember Savannah, you have a lot of people on your side. Right, onto happier things…we have to finish up the editing for the January issue. I have to hand it in to the publisher by the end of next week; I already turned in the Most Influential Men section since it was a huge portion.”

  “Okay, when did you want me to go over everything?” I ask in between bites of my omelet.

  “I’ve just emailed everything to you and I figured you can work on everything throughout the week while you’re here and then just email everything back to me when you’re done. Let me know your opinion on the articles and if there’s anything you feel should be added. You have a keen sense of fashion for girls your age, so I really want your feedback on the article we did for the Hottest Trends for Spring Break 2013. We have some of the season’s hottest bathing suits, sandals, clothes, and purses… all that kind of stuff.”

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  Chapter 13

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  I talk with Brooklyn about everything that’s happened with Kayden and Logan, before heading out to the salon. She rants for a good thirty minutes about what a pathetic piece of crap my ex was.

  Brooklyn will be flying in to spend the week with me tomorrow, and it can’t come fast enough. I need her to help distract me from the mess of my life. Even if I only get to pretend for a week that Logan doesn’t exist, it will be worth it. When I get back to Los Angeles next week, I’m going to be entering a storm of complete chaos. I’m dreading the next conversation I’ll be having with my parents…having to once again rehash everything and discuss how to deal with Logan and this whole Celebrity Rehab ordeal.

  The salon Quinn referred me to was fantastic, they do an amazing job on my hair, good enough to let me don a fake smile and make everyone believe I’m completely over Logan Sanders. My mind in reality however, is totally confused, last night with Kayden is making me want him even more, but the effects of everything with Logan is causing my brain to scream at me to stay away.

  When I arrive back to the hotel, Reagan is just coming in from the pool.

  “I hate you,” I glare at him as he walks alongside me towards the elevator.

  “What did I do?” he retorts, snapping his head around to me as he pushes the button.

  “I have spent the last four hours in treatments, getting my hair, nails and face beautiful for tonight and you lay out at the pool the entire time. It’s not fair, men have it too easy.”

  “Hey! I just worked hard on my tan for tonight,” he jokes, poking me with his elbow. “So how was last night…? Things looked pretty hot and heavy between you and Knox at the club, and I noticed you disappeared for a while.”

  “A girl doesn’t kiss and tell Reagan,” I say winking at him as we step into the elevator. A few other people get in with us, cutting Regan’s pleas for gossip short.

  He walks me to my room so I can get ready before the limos arrive, “Don’t think I’m finished with you Savannah, I will get you drunk tonight and make you sing like a canary,” he laughs, turning to look back at me as he walks towards his suite.

  “Oh Reagan, sorry to burst your bubble but that will not be happening.” I say to a look of pure annoyance on his face, before sliding into my room to work on my makeup.

  I spin around in front of the mirror admiring my gorgeous, teal cocktail dress, placing my fingers on the gold shimmer waistline. I had the salon do a cute, loose braid that started at my left temple and wrapped around the back of my head leaving all my hair in big curls that stopped at the bottom of my back. I’m wearing white shimmering eyeshadow that contrasts with the thick black flick along the top of my fake lashes, with bright blue liner across the bottom of my eye, which really makes them pop. I want all the attention here tonight.

  I keep my jewelry simple and choose a large, diamond cocktail ring, gold bangles and a silver double heart pendant necklace that is outlined with diamonds. I know there will be press all over the place so I want to make sure I look nothing but fabulous. A main part of our job at Envy is looking the part. Eloise always drilled in all of her employees heads, to never leave your house looking nothing but fabulous.

  I send my mother a quick text before I head downstairs to the limos,

  Me: I’m heading out to the party for Envy’s Most Influential Man Issue. I wanted to see when wou
ld be a good time to video chat. I gotta tell you something about Logan. I want you to hear it from me.