Irresistible Desire (A Savannah Novel) Read online

  I only make it to the lobby when she replies,

  Mom: Savannah, please tell me you are not getting back together with him…

  I roll my eyes with annoyance; I need to watch how I phrase things. I cannot believe she would even let that idea cross her mind. I would…Never…go down that road again. I reply quickly as the limousines are already waiting,

  Me: OMG NO! I cannot believe you just asked me that, we’re not back together…nor will we EVER get back together. He signed up for a stupid television show where he’ll be discussing his numerous affairs :/ I g2g but will ttyl xoxo

  Kayden had sent over three stretch limos, which made it a lot easier than all twenty of us trying to get cabs. He really had thought of everything.

  The closer we get to the club, the more my nerves are beginning to get to me. I’m beyond nervous about seeing Kayden, I don’t know whether he’s angry with me for slipping out while he was still asleep this morning. I don’t even know if he’ll act anything but professional tonight, will he just pretend as if nothing had happened between us?

  “Earth to Savannah,” Rebecca says, snapping her French manicured fingers in front of my eyes and jolting me back to reality.

  “Oh…what?” I shift in the seat and turn to face her. She looked gorgeous tonight, too. Eloise would be pleased with our choices I thought to myself

  “I asked you how last night went, but you were off in la-la land,” she laughs, “I said…I saw you leave with Kayden last night, sooooo did you?"

  “Did I what?” I say, trying to play dumb. Why was everyone so damn fascinated with my sex life?

  “Oh. My. God…You did!" She dramatically smacks her hands on the leather seats beneath us! “You got to experience sex with the world’s most sought after bachelor!” She stops talking for a moment to regain her composure, “You know every girl in America would kill to be you right now.” She inched closer to me, smiling like the cat that got the cream.

  All I can do is smile back at her and listen to her ramble on about last night, “I knew it, the way he was watching you all night, it spoke volumes.” I’m so grateful that everyone else is so consumed by their own conversations to pay any attention to ours. All I need is more people gossiping about my life.

  “I’m surprised he didn’t ask you to be his date to the party tonight,” she says as she gazes at me with a confused expression on her face.

  Oh God, here we go. Now because of one night, everyone will assume we’re a couple. This just went from bad to worse. Everyone who has a brain knows Kayden doesn’t date, he has casual, meaningless sex with women…nothing ever extends past that. Plus I have made it very clear enough times since September that I have zero interest in getting into another relationship.

  “We’re not dating and we’re not a couple…so I see no reason for us to come here together. That would just make others assume things that were untrue.” The more we talk about Kayden, the more I can’t stop myself from thinking about him…about last night.

  “Well his loss. So do you think last night was a one-time thing?” She was persistent, I give her that.

  “I don’t know, I guess we’ll know after tonight. I haven’t heard from him at all today, so as far as I know he’s done with me. I presume he’ll move onto his next conquest later,” The words hurt more saying them out loud, than they did when I said them in my head.

  Before I have to think any more about it, mine and Rebecca’s cells start to beep simultaneously. We fish them out and open them, although I wish I hadn’t. I watch the TMZ video post of Logan outside The Ivy this evening. A TMZ reporter was talking with him about Dr. Drew. Just when I thought my life couldn’t get any worse, I’m proved wrong. I can’t believe this has gone viral now. Vertigo is going to filled with reporters focusing on me instead of Kayden or the magazine. If he didn’t already hate me, he certainly would by the end of the night. This is going to mean one giant media circus.

  Rebecca leans towards my ear and whispers into it trying her best to not draw attention to us, it looks like no one else here had received the alert yet, “Don’t let it get to you Savannah,” she says, rubbing my arm soothingly. I take a deep breath in and try to hold back tears.

  “Just please don’t leave my side…I need you to help me stay strong tonight,” I say with a small smile, “I will not allow Logan to ruin tonight for myself, Eloise…or Kayden.” I say as we prepare ourselves for the firestorm. Paparazzi line both sides of the red carpet with determination burning eagerly in their eyes, I put my head down and repeat the all-important “no comment” until I get inside the club.

  I make it safely inside Vertigo, smiling, waving and trying to ignore the most ignorant of questions from the press. Over the last few weeks I have had many, so called friends speaking to the gossip magazines with inside information on how I am handling my break-up from Logan. Thankfully Eloise spoke with everyone at Envy and informed them that they were not to speak a word to anyone about my personal life or else their contracts would be terminated.

  The paparazzi have even been chasing my parents all over their U.S. tour, throwing in comments about how sorry they were for me, believing that if they show some sympathy, my parents would sell my story. It’s situations like this that make me happy to work for a respectable magazine.

  Rebecca and I search through the crowd of people and after a few minutes we find Reagan. He hasn’t wasted any time and is flirting with a gorgeous blonde at the bar. Rebecca orders me a whiskey sour and sets it down in front of me, sending my mind racing back to last night. I think the cherry trick caught Kayden, hook, line and sinker.

  “Is it hot in here? I’m dying and I am wearing practically nothing,” I laugh, fanning myself with my hand. Rebecca starts giggling at me as I press my ice cold glass against my chest.

  “Umm…No. It’s perfectly comfortable in here Savannah. Is a certain someone from last night causing your body temperature to rise?” She smirks at me, resting her hands on her hips as she slides onto the chair at the bar and sips her Hard Lemonade,

  “Well, as a matter of fact…Yes,” Those were all the details she was getting out of me.

  “I don’t get you Savannah, if I had been the one beneath Kayden Knox last night, I would be shouting it from the rooftops. That man is a tall glass of freakin’ hotness!” Now she was the one fanning herself.

  “Stop imagining him naked!” I giggle, slapping her arm playfully.

  “Okay! Geesh don’t get all physical on me, but come on, you gotta see that this is something to be proud of!”

  “Oh, yeah really something to be bragging about…Guess what everyone? I just became another notch on Kayden Knox’s bedpost. I think NOT!” I roll my eyes at her as she glares at me.

  “I would be a notch on his bedpost any day, along with any other hot blooded woman on this planet. You won the jackpot last night, and if you play your cards right, I bet you a hundred dollars that you could be doing it all over again tonight.”

  I set my glass down on a napkin, trying not to feed into Rebecca’s insanity. Kayden will more than likely leave here tonight with a beautiful model, who is far more deserving of his affection. I was shocked I hadn’t seen him yet; he was probably avoiding me…just wonderful!

  I glance around the night club which looked totally different to last night, the decoration was beautiful and anyone who’s anyone is here.

  “Looking for someone Savannah?” Rebecca says sarcastically, startling me and making me jump,

  “What? No,” I feel the heat rising to my face, “I'm just looking around, this place looks so different compared to last night. I didn’t think there would be so many people here.”

  “Oh cut the crap,” Rebecca playfully pushes on my arm, “I know you’re trying to spot Kayden.” She could see right through my lame lie. “You’ve got it bad girl, I don‘t believe a word you say when you try to play it off as nothing.”

  Was last night a one-time thing? Is he pissed at me for sneaking out during the night without
so much as a goodbye? To top it off, my love life has peaked the media’s interest; when today is supposed to be all about him and Envy.

  “I really don’t know.” I gulp down the rest of my drink and slam the empty glass on the bar. My life is one gigantic disaster.

  *****

  Chapter 14

  *****

  Reagan finally decides to join the conversation, “Well I think that if Knox is as intelligent as he makes himself out to be, he will be begging for more. Only an idiot would pass up a chance to be with you.” Reagan’s flavor of the hour starts to whine because his attention isn’t focused on her. Why are so many women so pathetic? “Believe me if you were not such a hard ass and shooting my every advance down, just like Brooklyn, I would be fucking you into oblivion every chance I got,” God I wanted to smack that smart ass smirk right off his face.

  “Reagan, don’t push your luck, I am not in the mood,” I say, giving him a stare down, letting him know I’m not in the mood for his bullshit. I flash a small smile so he knows I’m okay, just to drop the subject of Kayden.

  Reagan quickly moved onto to the next topic, “I’m assuming you got the TMZ text alert? The paparazzi looked like vultures out there waiting for your guys’ limo to arrive. I bet Paisley and Maverick are beyond pissed off right now.”

  “Yeah, Rebecca came to the rescue, saving me from total embarrassment. That’s all I needed was to step out looking like a train wreck from crying my mascara off. I would have had to see that plastered all over the news stands. My parents will most likely have their publicist make a statement tomorrow. He does this just as interest finally started to die down!”

  “I am not shocked at all that he did this, I’ve never liked him,” Rebecca says with anger radiating through her voice. She rests her hand on mine for a moment, giving me a sympathetic smile. I’m extremely grateful to have her and Reagan here with me. With Brooklyn in Vancouver and my parents on tour, I’ve felt very alone in all of this.

  “It felt like all the reporters cared about was if I saw the breaking news…it’s like it completely slipped their minds they were here to cover the Envy party,” I need to drop the topic before I get myself all worked up again, “I’m done talking about this…I want to enjoy tonight and not worry about what will come tomorrow.”

  “Good! We’re here to celebrate and celebrate we will,” Reagan says, tossing back a shot! “Focus on having fun tonight.” He pats my knee and heads off to the dance floor with the blonde he’s sitting with.

  “I think staying here this week will be good for you Savannah. Everyone is assuming you’re returning to Los Angeles tomorrow with the rest of us,they’ll be scoping out LAX and your house for you, no one will think to find you still in Texas,” Rebecca said reaching for my hand and pulling me towards the dance floor.

  We spend the next hour dancing and mingling; I had not seen Kayden anywhere and mention it to Eloise when we find her. She explains that he’s in his office on a business call. It’s no sooner than she indicates this, that I’m being dragged away by Rebecca. “What are you doing?” I ask dumbfounded,

  “You’re going to Kayden’s office. You’ve spent the entire night searching this place for him, for God’s sake, if you want to see him…so go see him!”

  The idea of walking into that office…after what we did in there last night, “I…can’t,” I stammer out, trying my best to stand my ground and not let her persuade me into barging in there. I’m being pathetic, I know better than to think that he would have been waiting for me to arrive, Kayden is well known for being a serial dater, he was probably thrilled when he woke up and I was gone.

  “You can and you will, you’re being such a drama queen right now, you need to march your ass up to that door and walk through it. Go see Kayden, it’s the perfect place to talk about this with him. It’s away from the crowd, you don’t want to have this conversation in public, someone could tell the press about what they over hear, making your life even more complicated.”

  “Okay, okay, you’re right. I’m just nervous, what if he gets irritated with me for bothering him? He could be busy with a very important phone call.”

  Kayden opens his office door at the same moment Rebecca pushes me into it, causing me to slam into his rock solid chest. Someone please kill me now.

  “I am so sorry," I squeak out as I back up a step and lock eyes with Kayden. He has his hands on me to prevent me from falling and the heat radiates through my skin, making me weak in the knees. The affect he has over me in such a short amount of time is terrifying to say the least.

  “Ladies,” was all he says as he looked from me to Rebecca.

  “Hello Kayden, I was just…leaving. Savannah has come to see you.” So much for not leaving my side tonight.

  I was so nervous, I contemplate turning around and bolting out the door, “This was a mistake; it was Rebecca’s bright idea to come and find you, I don’t want to bother you. There are a ton of people out there waiting to see you.”

  Kayden quickly snaps me back to reality, pulling me into his office and slamming the door behind me, “Savannah what is going on?”

  “I felt bad for slipping out of your room, I wanted to see you and explain.”

  “Okay, then explain away,” he says as he sits down on an oversized chocolate colored couch, the couch we had passionate sex on…just last night.

  Why does he have to look so damn good? Sitting there in his dark slacks, white button up dress shirt and mint green tie. I slowly sit down a little way away from him, trying to keep my distance. Just smelling him was turning my brain to mush, I don’t think I could hold myself together if he touches me again.

  I clear my throat and smooth my dress out as I turn slightly to face him, “When we fell asleep I felt amazing, everything that had been stressing me out had vanished. The only thing on my mind was you, me and everything I had experienced with you last night.”

  He shifts on the sofa, turning towards me and places his hands on top of mine. I instantly suck in a sharp breath of air; every time he touches me it sends shockwaves throughout my body. “I felt the same way and believe me it kind of freaked me out, too. I’m used to meaningless sex. I have been with a lot of women over the last few years and none of them have affected me the way you do.” He’s looking at me so intensely, I can feel every word he was saying and I know he’s being honest with me.

  “I hooked up with someone on Halloween, a few weeks after I broke off the engagement with Logan. I was petrified to put myself out there again,”

  At mention of me sleeping with someone Kayden instantly tenses upI close my eyes for a second to try and keep the tears from falling. I hate how he’s making me feel, I tell myself not to fall for anyone ever again and I fall for a womanizer!

  “When I slept with this guy, I was sexually attracted to him…but that was it. There were no other feelings there; I was able to walk away without any desire to see him again. With you I knew it was dangerous, I felt something for you the day I met you, I told myself to stay away from you but last night with all the shots and flirting I lost my will to resist you. I gave in and it was amazing, beyond amazing.” I say, smiling up at him.

  “Savannah last night was amazing for me too. Every time I move, a muscle in my body aches and it reminds me of you. I swear I have been hard most of the day because I can’t get you out of my head.

  “Hmmm,” he moans as he runs his finger along my flushed cheek, “Did I make you blush, Savannah?” Every time he says my name my panties instantly become wet.

  I cross my legs trying to stop the throbbing. He’s making all my walls come down with a smile and a swipe of a finger over my face. What the hell is wrong with me? “The problem is after I fell asleep though.”

  “I woke up next to you and panic washed over me. I never planned on staying the night; I didn’t want things to get complicated in the morning. I didn’t want to set myself up to get hurt, I was afraid we would wake up, part ways and then you would want to pretend nothin
g happened. Especially with having the Envy party today, knowing I would have to see you again so soon…after last night,”