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  “So…you thought sneaking off in the middle of night was the best option? If you didn’t want to spend the night you should have just said so. I would have walked you down to your suite,” His voice drips with disappointment, “I feel awful that you were upset, that was the last thing I wanted. He grabs my hands and holds them firmly in his, his eyes going from fire hot to serious in a split second.

  “I’ve had my fair share of heart break Savannah. I never used to be this womanizing player that I am today. Like you I’m this way to protect myself, I loved someone once before and I got hurt in the end. Now, I never know who likes me for me. I never know if people want to be with me because they actually like being around me or if it’s just because of my name, my money… Most of the women I hook up with want to sleep with the guy they see on magazines and not with me because they have spent time with me and had a chance to get to know the real me.”

  “I get it believe me I do, I’ve had enough guys ask me out because of who my parents are.”

  The sadness in his eyes takes my breath away.

  It never crossed my mind that he had sealed his heart off as a way to protect it. That was why he never hooked up with the same woman twice. It was then I realized Kayden went outside is comfort zone too last night.

  “So last night…was it the first time you had been with the same woman more than one time since you had your heart broken?”

  I’m afraid of his answer, was it wrong for me to enjoy the idea of him doing something with me that he normally wouldn’t do with other women?

  “I think you already know the answer to that question Savannah.”

  Before I can speak his lips are on mine, I’m so taken aback I that it takes me a second to react. I feel his lips form a smile and I slowly lose the strength to resist him, “Savannah, for tonight please stop over thinking everything and just let go,” he murmurs into my ear, “Let’s not try to dissect whatever the hell this is and just give into it and enjoy it for what it is… amazing fucking sex.”

  With those words any ounce of strength to keep resisting his advances disintegrates instantly. I will probably regret this decision tomorrow because I know I’m playing with fire and when you play with fire, you know you’re going to get burned. Right now I just don’t care.

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  Chapter 15

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  Kayden’s breathing is rapid against my neck as he kisses, sucks and nibbles along my collar bone. He towers over me and presses himself between my legs and I run my hands over his muscular arms, taking in every inch of his body. He’s wearing the same cologne he had on last night, and the smell washes over my body, filling my nose with pleasure. He grips my thigh firmly and moans into my ear as I glide my fingers through his hair, entwining my fingers in his locks and gently pulling as desire shoots through my body.

  “You drive me crazy,” he growls before sealing his lips back over mine. I love the taste of spearmint and liquor on his tongue as it dives into my mouth, exploring every inch of it. Just as he loops his fingers into the elastic of my panties, there’s a knock on his office door.

  Panic takes over and snaps me back to reality; just outside that door was my boss, co-workers and everyone who was here for Kayden. Every time I’m around him I lose all common sense. I quickly push Kayden off me and fix my hair before reaching down to adjust my panties and dress. “Oh my God, Kayden! What were we thinking?” I whisper, hoping whoever is at the door can’t hear us.

  “We weren’t thinking…and I have no regrets. Neither should you,” He stands up and fixes his shirt and pants. God he looks so sexy, he doesn’t even have to try.

  “That’s my point! Every time I’m near you I make rash decisions without considering the consequences. What if that’s Eloise outside the door? What will we say?” I’m seriously freaking out now; I could kill Rebecca for bringing me to his office.

  He takes a step closer and places his hand on my cheek, staring so deeply into my eyes that I have to look away, “Savannah, look at me.” I glance back at him, whoever was at the door was persistent and they continue to knock aggressively. “Hold on a minute," he shouts across the office towards the knocking, before turning his attention to me, “If you’re that worried, go in the bathroom and wait for me to see who is, if I have to go back to the party just wait for me to leave and slip out after a few minutes. It’s nothing to freak out about, you really need to learn to relax," he laughs and flashes me a devilish grin.

  He has this strange control over me and I can’t help but relax, “Okay, you’re right. I’ll go hide and clean myself up while I’m at it. I don’t want to get my picture taken with this hair,” I giggle. I plant a quick peck on his lips and quickly run into the bathroom.

  I hear Kayden open the door and the sound of an unfamiliar man's voice echoes in to me, “Geesh man, what the hell took you so long? I thought I was going to have to bust the door down,"

  “Sorry I was in the bathroom. What’s up?"

  “Giselle is out there looking for you, you’re the only guy I know who shows up with a smoking hot date and leaves her out there, while you sit around in your office taking business calls.”

  Oh my God, Kayden has a date…of course he has a date! While she’s out there, he is in here seconds away from fucking my brains out. Again.” I I touch up my lipstick and wait for Kayden and the mystery man to finish their conversation so I can get back to the party.

  I hear Kayden snap at the guy, “Well she knew what she signed up for when she agreed to be my date, I don’t do romance and all that mushy bullshit. She got to arrive on my arm, tell her to enjoy the party. She probably couldn’t care less about spending her time here with me; she just wants to have her photo taken alongside me so she can say she came with Kayden Knox. There are plenty of single guys and some married out there who will gladly keep her entertained for me.”

  “Woah, sorry man, don’t shoot the messenger. I’ll tell her you’re busy with a phone call and will come find her shortly…Okay?”

  “Thank you. Sorry for snapping at you Braxton, I’m just a bit on edge with my Dad and Luanne being here and all. I’d rather stay locked up in here all night than have to spend five more minutes around those two,”

  “Don’t worry about it; I understand completely…I can’t believe they actually came. Maybe they’ll get bored and excuse themselves early, and then the real party can begin.” I hear them both laugh and then the doors shut.

  I stand there for a moment, trying to listen. I don’t know if Kayden has left with him or not. By the way he spoke to him, it sounded as if he planned on staying in here for a while longer. I wonder why he doesn’t want to be around his dad and his fiancé. When we researched Kayden for the magazine article I didn’t read anything about their relationship being strained. Kayden’s knock on the bathroom door startled me and I let out a small scream.

  “Savannah? Are you okay in there? He’s gone, you can come out now,” I slowly slip out of the bathroom to find Kayden leaning against the wall by the door.

  “I’m fine. I was just waiting to see if you were still in here,” I say, trying to avoid eye contact with him, suddenly I’m so nervous that I can’t seem to stand still. I stare down at my feet and wait for him to say something. The entire feeling in the room has shifted.

  “I imagine you heard of all of that," he sounds defeated, “I want you to stop thinking whatever it is you are in that over active brain of yours. Yes I came with a date…but she is nothing to me, so don’t feel guilty for one second about what just happened in here.”

  “I feel awful, you have someone out there looking all over for you,” I say, pointing towards the doorway, “Do you know how bad I would have felt if that was her knocking on the door…interrupting us?”

  “I know, I wasn’t thinking! Hell I can’t think at all when you’re around Savannah! I got caught up in the moment and all I wanted was to be inside you. You have me all up in knots; I hate what you’re doing to me. I crave you…I want nothing
more than to hear you screaming my name while I make your body explode”. He grabs my arms, spinning us round and pushing me against the wall. My eyes are drawn to his like a moth to a flame. I couldn’t fight the attraction, no matter how hard I tried.

  “What the fuck are you doing to me Savannah?” He positions his knee between my legs to hold me up and kisses me so passionately that my body goes limp. His ripped stomach presses against mine, pinning me against the wall and he slides his hands all over my body, stopping at my thighs. I pull his shirt up and run my hands along his hard, muscular back, gently grazing my nails along his smooth skin, making him moan into my mouth. He grips my thighs harder and I slide further down the wall so I’m resting on his leg – the pressure on my clit causing a groan to escape my lips

  “There’s no time to fuck, but I am not letting you out of this office all hot and bothered…there are way too many guys out there who will see that hunger in your eyes and be all over you. I will not allow that to happen,” he whispers into my ear, his deep drawl sending shivers through my body.

  “Oh God, every time you speak it does crazy things to my body,” I manage in between moans, as he slides his fingers under my lace panties and finds the spot that’s craving his touch.

  His fingers dive deep inside of me, massaging my inner walls and causing pleasure to build intensely inside of me. I lose myself completely as he devours my body.

  I dig my nails into his shoulders, trying to hold onto him while my climax builds inside of me, “I’m going to…” Kayden cut me off, kissing me feverishly again, moving his thumb eagerly over my clit as his fingers continue to fuck me. Kayden screams in pleasure as I bite down on his lip and dig my nails harder into his back; I explode with one of the most intense orgasms, squeezing his fingers as I ride the waves of pleasure coursing through my body. Every time with Kayden felt even more amazing than the last. It’s like my body is constantly craving his touch, just waiting for the next time he touches me.

  “You are so fucking hot right now, dripping wet because of me,” he says, licking my neck as he cups my ass in both hands, “I almost came in my pants, that was…so hot, hearing you moan and scream my name like that. Words cannot come close to describing how amazing you feel, taste…it’s addicting.”

  I smooth his shirt back down and run my fingers through his hair, gazing into those deep green, beautiful eyes. They were so bright and full of happiness because of me, it’s crazy how much things can change in a matter of a few minutes, “I think you’re going to kill me Kayden Knox!” I giggle as he squeezes my butt, pushing me into him, “You make me want to do naughty things every second of the day.”

  “I’m happy to hear I’m being such a bad influence on you Miss Livingston. Being a naughty girl means I get to punish you,” He playfully slaps my ass, making me squeal.

  “You better watch yourself Kayden, or I’ll be putting you over my knee,” His reaction is priceless, his eyes are as big as saucers and that sexy ass grin came over his face again.

  “Ohh believe me Savannah, I would love nothing more than for you to punish me! But we have a party to get back to before they send the cavalry in to get me,” he says, rolling his eyes. He tucks his shirt back in and I excuse myself back to the bathroom. My face is flushed and I can’t get this grin off, my cheeks were definitely going to be sore from all this smiling. It feels good to smile and be happy after the way my evening began.

  “Kayden,” I say as I step out of the bathroom and walk over to him. He looked so handsome in his suit, “I hope you’re not upset with me for all the craziness outside with the paparazzi,”

  “The only person I’m upset with is your douche bag of an ex-boyfriend. I would love to take out my pent up frustrations on his pretty boy face.”

  “Believe me I would pay to see that! But I just want to make sure you are okay? I feel awful for directing attention away from you and your party, it’s the last thing I wanted…believe me." He wraps his hands around me, pulling me against his chest. I tip my head up to look at his face, studying it to see if he was being honest.

  “I’m not upset, trust me.” He places a gentle kiss on my nose, making butterflies flutter inside my stomach. This is not good…Not. Good. At. All.

  “Okay…well are you ready to go out and enjoy your party?” I don’t know how we’re going to play this. Do we walk out together or separately? Everything happened so fast over the last thirty minutes I don’t know what’s going on. “Don’t want to leave your date waiting,” I say with more sarcasm than I planned.

  Kayden grabs my hand and stops me from opening the door, his face instantly serious. I hear the desperation in his voice when he speaks, “Giselle means nothing to me, I want to make that very clear. Her father manages our hotel in France, and she’s a friend of the family, I take her to events with me sometimes. She uses me to get her face on magazines and I use her so I don’t need to show up to an event alone. We have never and will never be more then friends. Our relationship is purely platonic. I have no reason to lie to you Savannah.”

  I don’t know what to say besides, “Alright”. Kayden thinks it best if we headed back out to the party separately. I didn’t need another reason to draw attention to myself; I had enough on my plate as it was.

  When I return to the party I find Rebecca and she instantly drags me off to the only semi-private place we can find, the ladies room. She’s as giddy as a school girl when I recount the events that had occurred tonight, “I’m so going to enjoy living vicariously through you,” she says with a Cheshire cat smile plastered across her face. Talking about it out loud to her, reliving those moments of passion instantly puts me in a good mood and I don’t stop smiling the rest of the evening.

  I catch glimpses of Kayden throughout the night, he spends most of his evening mingling and networking, he even joked about the gigantic mock cover of Envy they had on display, with his gorgeous self gracing the cover. I love how he doesn’t take himself too seriously, even with a billion dollars in the bank and celebrity status, he was still a humble person.

  I spot his father, Victor Knox and his extremely beautiful, much younger fiancé, Luanne Granger mingling with some of Kayden’s business associates. Kayden was the spitting image of his father; the only difference being Victor’s grey speckled hair and a perfectly groomed goatee. His fiancé looks as if she stepped straight out of a Victoria’s Secret catalogue; she was tall with olive skin and long, silky black hair, big almond shaped brown eyes and a small button nose, which I would bet any money she was not born with. I didn’t witness Kayden and his father interact the entire evening, it was as if they were deliberately avoiding each other.

  I’m sitting at the bar with Rebecca, sipping on a glass of champagne when I feel Kayden standing behind me. It was strange how my body responded to him; I could feel his presence before actually seeing him. He leans over the bar, ordering a Corona with a slice of lime. The way he runs his finger up the side of the glass bottle, grinning ear to ear, makes my entire body tingle with excitement. I begin to feel flush as I remember where those fingers were just a few hours earlier. He leans down to my ear, “You’re blushing again, my sweet Savannah. Whatever you’re thinking about…it must be naughty,” he purrs, instantly firing up the desire that he had burning inside me in his office.

  “Yes, as a matter of fact I’m reminiscing to a time when a certain extremely attractive guy, who is far too sexy for his own good, had me pinned against a wall; bathing in a mind blowing orgasm,” I say seductively and give him a quick wink. I burst out laughing as he lets out a slight growl and adjusts his slacks.

  “You’re killin’ me, you best behave yourself Savannah before I have to take you back to my office,” he says slowly in my ear.

  I snap my head round to look at him again, “But where’s the fun in that? If being naughty gets me back in there, then hell, I’ll be the naughtiest girl you’ve ever laid eyes on.” I flash an impish smile and toss back the remainder of my champagne. The heat was rising in hi
s face; I love how easily I was able to affect him.

  Just like that, he took up his beer and was off again, with his date for the night, to visit his guests. Not long after he leaves my desire for him starts to fade and I instantly chastise myself. Why was I so worked up over a man I barely know? Kayden Knox had my insides in knots after just twenty four hours; I can’t imagine what kind of a mess I’ll be in by the end of this week.